Stuff. Yeah, stuff.

Sometimes I get this overwhelming feeling that I'm a useless waste of space.  Like I've let my life completely pass me by.  I'm an EMT, but I don't use those skills past helping my roommates and friends and other people I come across.  I passed high school, but I flunked out of college so badly I can't get federal grants or loans for school.  I spend most of my time writing my book and attempting to find yet another in a long line of dead end jobs that invariably piss me off to the point of wanting to tear peoples heads off. I got married when I was eighteen, and it was a horrible horrible failure.  After that I spent a lot of time being lost and depressed and doing nothing with my life.  So yeah, depressed insomniac rant.  Enjoy.

Love, Money, and WoW.

Y'all may remember me making a post about how I hate money.  It's still as true today as it ever was.  However, it is necessary to today's society.  Hence my sadness over losing my job.  Yes, I hated my job, but I still wanted to work.  I think it's unfair that they fire me for being legitimately sick, I have the notes from the doctor to prove it, and yet they continue to employ known drug addicts.  In short, right to work laws suck, no matter what anyone tells you.
Now, on the other hand of my life, I am so very lucky and blessed to have some true friends.  You may remember that since I started thinking for myself and not allowing myself to be drawn into petty drama I have lost some of my oldest friends.  Specifically, the oldest friend I have now I have known for shortly over a year.  Thankfully they have proven to be better friends than I've ever had before, helping me at every turn and allowing me to grow into my own person instead of selfishly trying to hold me back.  I'm appreciative  of these friends and members of my family, old and new, blood and spiritual.  I also look to the future of my love life with some hope.  I have faith that I will find someone for me, and I think I may have found her.  Nothing is definite, and only time will tell, but I have a good feeling.
And lastly, I really enjoy playing WoW.  I think the money is well worth it, and I don't let it control my life, but I love it.